I can be feeling fine, meaning that I'm not consumed with thoughts about Michael, but my body will signal otherwise. My heart starts pounding and my extremities get achy. My doctor has given me a couple of different prescriptions to try, but I usually only take them after the anxiety has become unbearable because I don't like the side effects.
I talked to my doctor and my counselor about my anxiety earlier this week, and my doctor recommended that I incorporate some yoga into my routine to help me practice good breathing. She said that a lot of the symptoms of anxiety are due to shallow breathing. I have some yoga DVDs here at the house, and I think I will start using them if only for the relaxation portion at the conclusion of the DVD where you focus on releasing tension in your body and breathing deeply.
I've also noticed that too much visual and auditory stimulation bring on my anxiety, so I'm going to have to avoid some things for now. Last weekend, a crowded store seemed to be a trigger. Last night, I attended the taping of a television show with my mom, and that was also stressful. But, just getting up and getting out the door in the morning for an appointment can also bring it on, and those are things I have to do. Anxiety really stinks. I don't want it to have a hold on me.
Lord Jesus, please bless me with an anxiety-free afternoon and evening.
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
1 Peter 5:6-7