While waiting for my counseling appointment yesterday, I came across some text messages on my iPhone that Michael and I had exchanged earlier this year. We used to text each other a lot, and I regret now that I deleted anything he ever texted to me no matter how mundane it was. I've learned how precious each and every word he said or wrote to me is now that he's not here.
In January, he was experiencing difficulty breathing, and Dr. K admitted him to the hospital for several days. We were together during the day, but I spent the nights at his sister's a few blocks away. The following are some of the text messages we exchanged during this time:
January 8, 2010
I love you, Honey. Sleep tight. XO (Joannah)
I love you too baby... so much. You sleep well too. See you tomorrow. X O M (Michael)
January 10, 2010
Good morning. How did you sleep?
Off and on.
Love yoooouu. Forever.
January 11, 2010
I am missing you right now. XO
I was just thinking of you. I really miss you and want to go home and be with you. Love of my life.
You are the sweetest man. Get some rest. I will take you home in a few short hours. :-)
Please do. See you in the morning. :-)
January 12, 2010
Good morning baby. Had my best night of sleep since I've been here.
Hope I get out of here today.
Another thing I came across recently was a letter he wrote me about our wedding day. It was part of our guestbook, and I had to hound him to get him to complete it. Guys just aren't into the sentimental stuff, I guess. I'm so glad he finally got around to it, because it's the longest thing he ever wrote to me. I love seeing his written thoughts and his handwriting.
Thank you for being my wife. I will love you forever. I look forward to our future together, whatever happens. I will be sharing it with you.
Thank you for not giving up on us. I know it took me a while, but I hope it's worth the wait. I look forward to starting a family with you, the mother of my children.
I love you, love being with you, and am excited about sharing our lives together.
To my beautiful bride (Mrs. Labrador)
All my love,
I miss that guy.