Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Four Months

Today marks four months since Michael went home.

Four months since I've seen his sweet face in anything but a photograph.

Four months since I've held his hands.

Four months since I've heard his beautiful voice call me his precious wife and tell me that he loves me.

That cancer was merciless and I wouldn't have wanted him to suffer another day.

But I hate being left behind to do life without him.


  1. I am so sorry for the pain you are going through and I hope that brighter days are ahead...I hope and pray that tomorrow is the brightest in a long while. I noticed that you said "do life" rather than "live life"...I hope that, with time, you will enjoy living life again. All in good time. For now, just take care of yourself and know that people out there really care about you a lot!

  2. This made me cry. I cannot imagine the pain of losing a husband. I do however know the pain of losing a loved one (Laura) and in time life goes back to "normal" again. Hugs....

  3. Such a sweet and poignant post. I am so sorry for your deep loss, still so fresh. I hope you are able to move through it and feel the warmth of his spirit presence around you.

  4. I feel for you in this time of extremely raw grief. It is painful and aches and is so encompassing you literally feel your heart hurt. You are in my constant thoughts and prayers. I am praying that tomorrow will bring a glimmer of joy into your life (or, more like a flood of joy!!) For today, wrap yourself up in Michael's love and allow yourself to feel and to heal, day by day in God's way. Love and hugs to you, Sarah

  5. I'm so sorry.
    Is it okay for me to say that 4 months from now I pray you are growing the best part of yours and Michaels love?
    Thinking of you and sending love and hugs your way.

  6. Best of luck tomorrow. I hope a very tangibe part of Michael lives on in you right now.

  7. You're in my thoughts and prayers, Joannah.

  8. Words can not say how I feel..
    I am sooo sorry my friend..
    But always know that he is with you in his spirit and watching over you and the babies..

  9. I had no idea that you had frozen embryos. How exciting. I will totally be praying for you!

  10. I'm so sorry, Joannah. I know right now you are just "doing life" without him. My prayer for you is that you will be able to start living life with his memory firmly planted in your heart.
    Praying for tomorrow!

  11. Such a special post. Time may eventually heal some of the deepest wounds, but the heart will always remember the true love you both shared. Thinking of you.

  12. Thinking of and everyday.


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