As of yesterday, summer arrived in these parts. Instead of overcast skies and cool temperatures, we are experiencing a heatwave. I am being frugal and decided to forgo turning on the air conditioner for now. So it was 87 degrees in the living room this afternoon.
Just a few minutes ago, I went to dress for bed. I remembered a white, cotton nightgown of mine that is good for hot summer nights, and went to get it out of my dresser. As I pulled it out of the drawer, I noticed that Michael must have been the last person to fold it and put it away. He had a different way of folding clothes than I do, so it was easy for me to tell. It was bittersweet to realize that he had been the last person to touch my nightgown.
Earlier this evening, I got sucked into watching Bethenny Getting Married. I really avoid all the Housewives of This, That, and the Other Place and their spinoffs - not my thing. But I let the remote linger there just a second or two longer than I should. Watching her and her husband revel in their new marriage and their feelings for one another brought back so many memories of the first eighteen months of our marriage. The joy in calling each other husband and wife. The way Michael tenderly called me Mrs. Labrador. All the sweet things we liked to say to one another. I really miss that. We never really got out of that honeymoon phase. We never had the time to take one another for granted.
I have been missing him so much this week. I can't believe this is my life. I can't believe Michael got cancer and died. It just shouldn't be this way. He should be here.
It shouldn't be this way! I really hate that it is this way for you. :( I am constantly reminded, by the trials of this life, that this world is not our home. I think that some of my friends who have been given everything their hearts have desired do not really have any sort of longing for our Christ or for heaven. With all they have, they are missing out. Still, I wish things were different for you!!
ReplyDeleteOh Joannah, it shouldn't be this way and frankly it is all a cruel injustice. I think of you always and send you caring thoughts.
ReplyDeleteYou are right; it shouldn't be this way at all. I wish things were different for you :-(
ReplyDeleteWhile I am no expert on the subject, I know that sometimes the only thing that keeps me going when I am longing for something or feel that the details of life seem so unjust is to know that all of our heart desires will be filled, as this is a promise from the lord. He will take away your tears and pain. Thinking of and praying for you. xoxoxoxoxox
ReplyDeleteI can't believe it, either, Joannah. And, I can only imagine how these waves hit you - in the heat or otherwise. Sending hugs to you...xo
ReplyDeleteI still don't believe it either :(
ReplyDelete(((HUGS)))
Sending huge hugs -- it shouldn't be this way.
ReplyDeleteNo, it should not be this way. Hearing your pain. Sending you prayers and hugs, Sarah
ReplyDeleteI sooo wish you didn't have to go through this..
ReplyDeleteYou are such an amazing person and so was Michael..LOVE You girly..
Hugs..