I read your blog on occasion and you sound so miserably unhappy all the time, as though nothing is going well in your life. I hope you feel better soon and are able to think about and do things that make you happy. Therapy might help. The counseling you received did not seem to help you so perhaps you might want to think about going to a cognitive psychologist who can help you reframe the issues that you talk about. At this point in your life old girlfriends shouldn't be bothering you. I hope you are able to focus on other things soon.
Jackson, please don't read my blog anymore, and if you just can't help yourself please don't bother commenting or sending me your thoughts via email. You obviously have no clue or compassion regarding what I've gone through in the last year.
A fool has no delight in understanding, but in expressing his own heart.