Michael drove a 1987 SAAB 900S. He loved that car and he loved working on it. I loved seeing him pull up in front of my house in that car, but other than that I wasn't crazy about it. It has over 250,000 miles on it, the air conditioning doesn't work, the seats are broken down, and the seat belts aren't in the best working order. I never really felt safe in it.
It hasn't been driven since December. It's parked on the back of my driveway. A friend of Michael's is supposed to take it, but I haven't heard from him in a while and he doesn't respond to my emails. I suppose I'm going to have to figure something else out if I don't hear from him soon.
Anyway, for years I would play this little game with myself when I was out driving around. If I saw a SAAB, and you don't see them that often because they aren't that common, I would tell myself that Michael was thinking about me. Kind of silly, I know. I hadn't played that game in a long time until recently, but I'm playing it again these days. Yesterday morning on my drive to and from the doctor's office, I saw four SAABs. That's a lot! Even if it's just a silly game, it made me feel good to see that many on a day when I was having to be brave while doing this IVF on my own.
I'd like to buy a new car in the next couple of years. I'm really drawn to the Toyota Venza, but then again maybe a new SAAB would make me feel like he's always out on the road with me.
That's so very sweet. I love the little games we pay with ourselves and who knows, maybe there's some truth to it. :)
ReplyDeleteHoping for the BEST with this IVF cycle, Joannah! Also hoping for more SAAB sightings this week...whatever makes you feel good is a good thing.
ReplyDeleteI play games like that all the time. :) I LOVED my SAAB too and it also saved my life one day too. I miss it!
ReplyDeleteI used to have a Saab...expensive to fix, broken a/c, a hole in the seat (and right where the seat warming coil was...ouch!) but I LOVED it. It's a Saab thing I guess :)
ReplyDeleteOh Joaanah,
ReplyDeleteI so love your memories, and I wholeheartedly wish that they were memories you would be sharing right now with your dear Michael.
BTW, I visited your link to Michael's music, and WOW!!! BEAUTIFULLY talented!! To hear his voice and music made me feel like I actually met him though his interview. Although he lives on, his passing is a tremendous loss to this world.
Wishing you all the best for a successful IVF cycle!!!
All of our Love, ((Hugs)) and Prayers!!
Jan, John & Jillian Rose
Joannah, I don't think that is silly at all. I do things like that all the time and seeing 4 Saabs on your way to and from the doctor IS a lot and I do not think it is a coincidence at all :-)
ReplyDeleteSending you lots of hugs!
Oh, yes, Joannah,
ReplyDeleteAlso wishing you more Saab sightings too!!!
Jan
p.s. sorry for the typo on your name :0)
Your game isn't silly at all and is really very sweet. I think owning a SAAB would be a fantastic way to keep Michael close to you.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Kim
OMW.. that is the BEST story.. LOVE IT..
ReplyDeleteI am telling you he is with you ALL the time..
I am voting on the SAAB..
Love me some signs..
Hugz..
keep me updated... I am soooo praying .. and I feel it..
Love ya
Beautiful!! I think you should always go with your gut.
ReplyDeleteGood luck tomorrow. Always thinking about you. <3
Not silly at all, rather sweet actually. I used to play the same game when my sister drove a Saab because she is so far away. Now she drives "Norman" and we don't have them over here!
ReplyDeleteWIll be thinking of you this week and hoping for lots of Saab sightings to and from your appointments.
YOU ARE SO BRAVE
ReplyDeleteand yes, I am shouting.
Keeping you in my thoughts, and so happy for your follicle count!
XOXO
Kate
Ha! Your story reminded me that Kai had an old broken-down Saab back in our dating days, too. What is it about that car?? :-)
ReplyDeleteI love your Saab story. I would bet that you'll be a Saab owner before long.
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